dialog with self

what is freedom and happiness?
is it found in living alone without any dependencies, doing what one wants to do? or in following the norms laid by society?
is it being your own master and living life as you want it? or listening to your friends and family and working towards making them happy?
or is it being with one special individual called the soul mate who is everything that you really wish for? who will make you complete.. who will help you find and realize who you are...

and whatever path we follow what is it that matters in the end???
the one day we feel that we have lived our lives and that it is now time to leave...

who will answer all these questions?
what state of mind is it that makes one think like this?
why do these questions come?

sometimes one feels like giving up everything and going off..
but then is this going off due to the fear of what is in the present?
then that only will make one a coward who ran off without facing the challenge..
does the calling come?
or is it just a myth propagated by individuals who wished to escape from this?

misery and loneliness brings about an intense dislike for life
its usually the state of mind inside that negates all the miracles that unfold before us
if we let our state of mind be dictated by external entities then we are in for a life long run of misery.
loneliness is bearable but misery caused in one person due to the behavior of another is meaningless.

everyone will meet many people on their journey
some will like them.. some will not...
some will accept them as they are.. some will try to change them..
what finally matters is whether you have been able to connect with them..
all superficial social gestures and smiles and jokes are meaningless

its alright if a few people feel that you are the worst.
do not let their judgment of you put you down..
its the same like one mans noise another mans music
every one is wearing different colored glasses
and the same event is interpreted by so many people in so many different ways..
what should matter to you is what you feel inside.
there is a watcher inside each one of us..
and what that watcher sees and feels must be heeded.

wanting someone to come and save you is not going to help..
you have to save yourself.
you have to correct your mistakes
understand your faults
improve. for yourself.. not for someone else.

wanting to be someone else and comparing your life with theirs is another cause for suffering
what you have is best suited for you..
if you wish to change it, put efforts in making the change
rather than wanting to be someone else and hating what you are..

there are certain things that are fixed in your life.
you cant change them.. accept them..
cribbing about them is only going to make you sour.
accept them and move on...

and depending on someone else for your happiness is the worst mistake a man can ever make.
why do you think we are individuals?
if happiness was not part of what we are we, would have been born as pairs with our so called soul mates
nature does not make mistakes..
it creates conditions for betterment

so acceptance of what you are is most important..
does not matter what someone thinks about you.
once you accept what you are, that is freedom..
freedom from false expectations and misery
and freedom from misery is the begining of happiness..


a nice song here for you ..

http://in.youtube.com/watch?v=dIAW2q9WT-o